Darcy Kind... Again

Today, Lydia let it slip that Mr.Darcy was at her "wedding", so I asked my dear aunt Mrs.Gardiner if she new about such things. I did not want to ask Lydia any questions then, for she asked us not to in an odd tone, and I just did not feel like it. Also, Jane gave me a look that I took as "Do not ask any questions." Therefore, I did not ask any questions, and I wrote the letter to Mrs.Gardiner without anyone's knowledge of it. When I received a reply to the letter, I was ecstatic, and I  went outside where nobody would be able to bother me. Boy was I shocked! Darcy was truly there, and he was involved. He was involved in a good way, though. I assume he is the one that helped pay off Wickham's debt along with my uncle. I cannot help but think that he did so for me. Could it be possible? Surely, if I had not told him anything, he would not be involved in any way.

The Foolish Child Comes Home

They have found her, Mr.Gardiner, my dear, kind uncle has found them both, and he is now taking care of them both. A few days later, she came home with Wickham. Everyone was quite angry and emotionless when they arrived, except Mama. Lydia was acting very foolish and seal-centered. Her behavior irked me. I disliked her at that moment, she has been acting like nothing happened, and she is expecting everyone to be happy that she is back and that we should throw her a party or something. Umm, no! How could she? It angers me beyond words.

Lydia's Letter

As soon as Jane sent the letters, I read them. By the time I had finished reading them, I became pale, sick, and I rushed for my aunt and uncle to come back. Then, we quickly hurried back to Longbourn. When we arrived, I went to speak to Jane, and she gave me more specific detail and information, she also showed me Lydia's foolish letter. That child is something else! She was so snotty and self-centered in her letter. She did not think of our feelings at all, but then again, that is expected of Lydia. Thoughtless child!

Oh Lydia!

Today, I received a letter from Jane explaining to me about Lydia's news. What a child she is; she is so thoughtless. How could she have done such a thing? I knew in the first place that Lyda should not have gone to Brighton, but nobody believed or agreed with me, everyone had wanted her to go, and now look what she has done! She has ran away with Wickham. When I said she was an embarrassing, foolish, flirt, I meant it. She is the worst Bennet of all!

What an Honor!

Wow, am I surprised! Yesterday, towards the end of that embarrassing day, Mr.Darcy told me he wanted to introduce his sister to me. What an honor! I remember his exact words, he said, "There is also one other person in the party,'' he continued after a pause, ``who more particularly wishes to be known to you, -- Will you allow me, or do I ask too much, to introduce my sister to your acquaintance during your stay at Lambton?" I was taken aback, but I was happy. Actually, it was a good feeling to know that he did not think ill of me from that day that I refused his hand in marriage and made all those horrific false accusations. It was quite satisfying! I accepted, I was very excited, I could not wait to meet her, for everyone has been saying good things about her.

My Heart Dropped!

Goodness! I knew it was too good to be true! As the gardener was conjecturing as to the date of the building, Mr.Darcy himself suddenly came forward from the road. It was almost impossible to to avoid his sight, it just happened so quickly. Our eyes met instantly, and I blushed like crazy; that was so embarrassing. For a moment, we just stared at each other in surprise, then he made the move and came toward us. Everyone was surprised to see him, including the gardener. He spoke to me first, and embarrassment just overcame me. I do not think I handled it well, he asked about my family and Longbourn, and ofcourse I  had to answer him. Afterwards, he left, then he came back. By the time he came back I had somewhat composed myself, we had an almost normal conversation. Then, I introduced him to my aunt and uncle. What an embarrassing day!

The Servant's Praise

The servant was a respectable-looking, civil elderly woman who has know Mr.Darcy since he was four years old. I did not expect this. She is a lovely woman indeed; her name is Mrs.Reynolds. As she was walking us through the palace, she was telling us all about Mr.Darcy, and I could not believe my ears! All she was doing was praising him. I was in absolute shock. I thought to myself, "Are we talking about the same Mr.Darcy?" We were told that he is a good brother, an extraordinary master, an amiable man towards the poor, etc, etc, etc.  One can only imagine what was going on in my head.There was definitely a moment where a more gentle sensational feeling  toward my original that I have ever felt toward Mr.Darcy.

Visiting Pemberley

At length when we turned in at the lodge, my spirits were in a high flutter. The Pemberley place was an amazing palace indeed."The park was very large, and contained great variety of ground. We entered it in one of its lowest points, and drove for some time through a beautiful wood, stretching over a wide extent." It was splendid, and as I walked through the place, I could not help but think that I might have been mistress to this house. At that point, I could have seen it many times before yesterday, and I would not have viewed it for the first time as a stranger. Also, I had a rather hard time believing Mr.Darcy was not home, I mean I was relieved but I was finding it too good to be true.

Finally, the Wait is Over

Finally, the wait is over! My impatience was growing and growing out of control. So, the next day I told Jane all about what had occurred between Mr. Darcy and I. She was quite taken aback. Jane being Jane, the nice person that she is, felt bad for him, and she thought that by the way I acted, I brought his self-esteem and disappointment down. The way she was acting. her reactions and such,  made me feel bad for how I acted toward him. I should have had more control over the  matters.When I had told he about Wickham's scheme, she almost had a stoke, for she never knew there were so much wickedness in mankind. Telling Jane all that had happened whilst I went away was like a having gigantic weight lifted off my shoulders.

Home Sweet home

Finally, home at last. It feels great to be back home again. Kitty and Lydia have been looking out the dining room window for about an hour waiting for our arrival. When we did rest awhile, Lydia did have some MAJOR news for us. She had told us news about "a man whom we all liked" meaning Wickham. Apparently, Wickham was not going to marry Mary King. I was shocked how the I really did not care. I was rather happy that Mary King did not marry Wickham, for Wickham is not a the greatest man in the world.

My Departue from Huntsford

Yesterday was my departure from Huntsford. Yesterday, early in the morning, I had breakfast with Mr.Collins, which was actually quiet casual. As I left for my carriage, he felt it necessary to pay us civilities and goodbyes numerous times. I will miss Huntsford. Hopefully, I will be able to visit there once more again. I really did enjoy my time at Huntsford, I enjoyed spending time with my dear friend, Charlotte, but I was just so eager to see my beloved sister, Jane.

If Only...

I was invited to Rosings, so I went to Rosings to dine with Lady Catherine. As I was dining with Lady Catherine, I could not help bu think about the what ifs. If only I had accepted Mr. Darcy's proposal... I could have been Lady Catherine's niece. What an odd thought. Also, with a smile on my face, I could not help but think of how her behavior would have changed towards me.

And He Proposes... What Guts He Has!

I cannot believe it, this man has some guts! After all that has happened, he wants to marry me? Ummm... no I do not think so.What a ruthless man! How can he do such despicable things, then expect for me to accept his hand in marriage? First he says that I am "tolerable", he insults my family, he say I am not good enough for him, yet he wants me to marry him? Also, he confessed that he liked me against his will, what a shocker! First of all when you approach a lady to accept your hand in marriage, that is definitely not what you say! What can he possibly be up to? I am sticking to my instinctive decision. No is no!

The Secret is Revealed

Mr. Darcy... What an inconsiderate jerk! Like we did not know that already. I cannot believe he would do something like that! I was conversing with Colonel Fitzwilliam about Mr.Darcy when he told me that Mr.Darcy split up a couple from a bad marriage because of the lady's family and connections. Colonel Fitzwilliam did not mention any names, but I knew who he was talking about, even though he did not know that I knew whom the couple was. He was talking about my dear beloved sister Jane and Mr.Bingley. I always knew Mr.Darcy was cruel and such, but I am beyond disgusted! Why would he do such a thing! I am VERY angry, I cannot wait to confront him about it, that idiot!

Mr. Darcy Drops By

I was in the middle of writing an important letter to Jane when Mr. Darcy walks in. He apologized numerous times for having just barged in, for he assumed all the ladies would be her, but it was only me. We did conversed a little, but it was somewhat of a "forced" kind of conversation. It was a very awkward situation. Then Charlotte came and saved the day, but as soon as she entered the room, he quickly got up and left. Charlotte, as silly and naive as she is, suggested that Mr. Darcy fancied me, but I do not agree. What a silly thing to say!

The News

I was with my dear friend Charlotte at Rosings when I heard the news. Mr. Darcy is to come to town; what a joy that will be! When he arrived, I was not happy to see, but I did great him as politely as I could. Along with him came his relative, Colonel Fitzwilliam. I do not know much about him, but he does look like a kind gentleman who only means well.